A Lonely Night....

Well I think My loneliness is starting to set in. I've really been Missing D a lot lately. I plug away at life so well and just keep moving forward, I know that it's all temparory and if I just keep moving forward it will be over before I know it, but I have to say, I'm really starting to feel it. He's been gone exactly 2 months yesterday. Weird how it seems longer than that....yet when you say 2 months, it doesn't seem like it's been that long. I think it's harder right now cause we can actually communicate with each other. Sounds kinda funny. You would think it would be easier but now that we can talk almost everyday it seems to make the situation harder. I actually was feeling like my feelings were hurt today cause he didn't call me tonight. In Basic you know they can't call, it's not their choice but when they have the freedom to do so and they don't, well that sorta makes a touch of insecurity creep in the head. BLAH!!! I don't like that feeling at all. it's definitely a different place for me to be.I am seriously not a needy person, so to feel that make me feel kind of icky...

On the flipside, I booked his flight today for him to come home for Christmas. It's only a 10 day trip, but I am so looking forward to seeing him. Especially during such a wonderful time of the year for us. He arrives on the 18th. Our daughter's bday is the 22nd and he leaves on the 28th. New Years would be our 8 yr anniversary since we started dating again. It will be sad to not bring in the New year together, but since he has to be back by the 2nd, it's better to make sure he gets back on time. Anyway....So in a month he comes home for a few days, this is good and it's something we can look forward too. Cause when he goes back we will not see him again for at least 14 weeks if not more.

So yeah, tonight is a lonely night...blah...maybe tomorrow will be a better one....